another year of growing

how does twenty seven feel? J asked me on my birthday four days ago. it took me the whole day to actually recognize the feeling of being one year older. yes, i am somehow a slightly different person from who i was a year ago. also yes, i am still a fool. a year has [...]

By | June 14th, 2017|Journal|Comments Off on another year of growing

a monologue

1. before everything happens; a silence. before every realization; a question. 2. have you ever think of how many traffic light had you stopped at, let say until this morning? how many minutes have you spend to wait for the green light to permit you to continue driving? isn't it strange though, that we need [...]

By | June 2nd, 2017|Journal|Comments Off on a monologue

the relish of being alone

there is an art in anything we do and in anything we are. to me, being alone in my own company and actually enjoying it - is an art. it takes days, months, or even years to finally understand the importance of loving and needing our own space, to feel the absence of another and the [...]

By | May 20th, 2017|Journal|Comments Off on the relish of being alone

i, too, was once a stranger

at first glance - i saw my father holding me in his hands. i was three or four years old at that time. i had a toothache from eating too many candies, which of course my father had warned me. yet, when i was crying in my bed, my father rushed in to hold me [...]

By | May 10th, 2017|Journal|Comments Off on i, too, was once a stranger

wonders and questions

once in a while i imagine myself as this person who remembers exactly everything - i have ever seen, i have ever heard, i have ever touched. the possibility of remembering every faces that has come to my very eyes, even the taxi driver who one time drove me to create an event in my [...]

By | May 6th, 2017|Journal|1 Comment

when sadness knocks at my door

each of us deals with sadness in a different way. one of my dearest friends would eat a lot of take away foods while sobbing in her pajamas. the other one would go drinking until she can distract the pain in her heart with another pain, especially in the morning after. i once had a [...]

By | May 3rd, 2017|Journal|2 Comments